Monday, September 14, 2009

So much to plan...

So, here I am. Working. As I always do. Imagining what it will be like to try to pull this off with a little one pulling on my arm. When I think about it, it truly does amaze me how women raise families, manage households, be a wife and have a career. And the same for fathers!
I've got the career part down. Check and then check again. Two companies and feeling pretty successful with what I've done with my career.
Household Management. Check. Although, I must admit I am not alone in that job role.
Throw in a baby...and I'm surrendering. I am overwhelmed by what that means for me. How do I do it all? Well, I simply don't. I'm making myself get into the mindset of stepping back and doing what I can with my career while I take a new path in life as a mother. I look forward to more peaceful days of walking in the park and sitting on the porch rocking our baby.

How do you not loose yourself while being the best mother you can be? I think parents shape the life of every human being. Your goals, motivations, morals...for the most part laid out by your parents. We are not the average couple. We don't clock in and clock out. We take those late night phone calls when something at a show goes wrong, when someone is not on the guest list and is freaking out about it or when a band is about ready to walk and not play their set. I don't necessarily want to throw that away. I want a break from it, yes. But, it is my life. It is OUR life together. And I do enjoy it. I just don't enjoy HOW much it runs my life now. I suppose there will be times when we are toting around a toddler at a show. Just hopefully, he/she won't turn into a groupie. :)

1 comment:

  1. Casey,
    You won't be able to do it all, at least not all at once. Some days work will have to wait. Some days you'll need help with the baby to get the work done that you have put off. Kids are a lot of work, but well worth it! On days that you feel like a failure your little one will continue to look at you with loving eyes, no matter what mistakes you have made. (At least until he/she is a teenager or an 8 year old who thinks she is going on 14. Then you have to remember the loving eyes of your sweet little baby and tell yourself it is puberty and your sweetie will return.)
    Balance is the key. Maintain who you are while enjoying the adventure of learning to understand the individual that is your baby. It is too easy to lose yourself in your baby and change who you are to suit your baby's needs. Make sure you ask for help when you need it.
    You and Josh will be great parents!!
    Kristi Cain