So, here I am. Working. As I always do. Imagining what it will be like to try to pull this off with a little one pulling on my arm. When I think about it, it truly does amaze me how women raise families, manage households, be a wife and have a career. And the same for fathers!
I've got the career part down. Check and then check again. Two companies and feeling pretty successful with what I've done with my career.
Household Management. Check. Although, I must admit I am not alone in that job role.
Throw in a baby...and I'm surrendering. I am overwhelmed by what that means for me. How do I do it all? Well, I simply don't. I'm making myself get into the mindset of stepping back and doing what I can with my career while I take a new path in life as a mother. I look forward to more peaceful days of walking in the park and sitting on the porch rocking our baby.
How do you not loose yourself while being the best mother you can be? I think parents shape the life of every human being. Your goals, motivations, morals...for the most part laid out by your parents. We are not the average couple. We don't clock in and clock out. We take those late night phone calls when something at a show goes wrong, when someone is not on the guest list and is freaking out about it or when a band is about ready to walk and not play their set. I don't necessarily want to throw that away. I want a break from it, yes. But, it is my life. It is OUR life together. And I do enjoy it. I just don't enjoy HOW much it runs my life now. I suppose there will be times when we are toting around a toddler at a show. Just hopefully, he/she won't turn into a groupie. :)